>>For whatever reason,. I don't think I've seen one in a year now!

This is a bad sign. You should seek medical attention immediately. Try to keep yourself sedated in the meantime.

M60ti, VP180, QS8, M2ti, EP500, PC-Plus 20-39
M5HP, M40ti, Sierra-1
LFR1100 active, ADA1500-4 and -8