Hang in there, Billy.
I was a smoking junkie off and on all my life. First cigarette at 7, started regularly at 15 (never dipped though) I was so addicted there were times I was tempted to wrap my lips around the tailpipe of any car with a running engine.
I've been totally smoke free for 12 years now, and believe me it is well worth the suffering to get off any weed to which you are attached. I no longer have any physiological urge to light up, but I still remember the psychological pleasure it gave me, and I miss (though not urgently) the ritual.
Though I will NEVER go back again, when the doctor gives me the "you've got six months diagnosis," I'm goin' right out and buy a pack of Camels. Problem is, when they tell me the price of a pack, I'm gonna have a coronary on the spot and I won't even get the chance for my last cigarette. RATS!
You CAN do it.
